This right here is currently my jam. Listening to it while writing papers and doing readings has never been so relaxing. Going through a bit of nostalgia and a few ruffles in my life with a box of tissues doesn’t hurt so much now. Makiko Hirohashi (who did the arrangement) is my heroine.
what are you seeing
in my mirror this morning
peering out like a hungry bird
behind my eyes
are you seeking the shape of a girl
you met in a Beijing Summer
or are you looking for my mother
I grow more and more
to resemble her
do you remember
I could not accept your face dying
do not know you now?
Surely your vision stayed
stronger than mine
you would have made a great photographer
for all the nuances you noticed I would have missed
had you not shown me
Steven tell me
where do dead boys wander
after their summer?
I wish I could see you again
far from me even
swan-like flying into the sun
your eyes are blinding me
Do you think I go to a liberal arts school because I want to get a job?
I want more than a job. I want to find myself, challenge myself, to think and unfold into myself.
I am on the road to self-discovery, however long that may take…and a job will come sometime on the way. There are so many things you can do in your time in college, so many things you can do after college…
and that’s for me to find out.
It’s my time to shine
It’s my time to wear whatever I feel sexy in (comfortable, conventionally unsexy lingerie)
It’s my time to cry, scream, rage
but I will NOT blame it on my period, what comes naturally to my female body.
I celebrate it as a chance for my emotions to unfold like flowers blooming in spring
I celebrate my being woman