I don’t care if you dislike me because I don’t fit your perception of what an Asian person is SUPPOSED to be like. I’m living my life how I am with no apologies. Accept me as an individual AND as an Asian person.
I’m not trying to “act white” or “act black” I’m Asian and have always been and always will be. American society is more than these two races despite selective histories public schools teach (although I think the public schools I have attended don’t do Black narratives or history justice).
I was taught to see myself through the lens of a White person or identify with the struggles of a Black person (which I cannot do because I am not Black) BECAUSE Nobody told me what it meant to be Asian. The history I learned was always written by some White scholar, taught by White teachers and never noted the first person narrative of an Asian person.
I didn’t learn about discrimination to Asians second-hand; I learned it through having undergone painful firsthand experiences, coupled with my gender, immigrant status (albeit from a Postcolonial Pacific oceanic country), emotional disorders, and queer identity (all of which very much intersect).
So take me for who I am. If my personality offends you, fine. If my race offends you, that’s never okay. If both offend you first ask yourself why.
What is an Asian supposed to be like, anyway? docile, harmonious, quiet, peaceful, good at math/science??! Perhaps sometimes for some people (yes I acknowledge this, however probably not all at once) but you wouldn’t think someone who is White who had a certain alignment of traits meant that the traits were true for ALL White people. Not ALL White people are racists.
*It’s not always the White people who struggle with racial ignorance by the way. People of Color struggle with internalized racism and may treat POC the same way they’ve been taught to devalue POC despite being POC themselves. Which is warped, which makes Racism itself even more warped.
That’s all. Thanks for reading.
*Made with spotty grammar but no excuses.